I actually came back to this *&#^ because it was the one place I had posted the video to "Blow Up The Outside"(and mentioned it at other times), which oddly the board added to my desire to do at times, instead of taking said desire away. I wish I had mentioned it elsewhere so that I didnt have to come here to express how troubled this made me, but here I am(Im guessing there are others who have that same wish, but I dont mind them at the moment).
There is a line in the song that he
never could blow up the outside, but according to appearances(suicide ruling) he finally did, oddly long after conquering his demons of anxiety. His wife doesn't buy the intentional suicide, and who can blame her:
Cornell’s wife disputes ‘intentional’ suicide
Orange79 was correct about atavan(sic), but many(maybe a majority?) of people who are on ativan are also on SSRIs or something similar, as well as other medications. Just because he mentioned to the wife that he had taken 1 or 2 more of them than usual, doesn't mean that that was his only prescription.
Oddly, just the night before, I had seen Soundgarden was on tour and was planning to check it out. I was fortunate enough to see him with all 3 of his bands, but that doesnt take away the sense of loss that for me is far greater than something like Jordan Tucker, Thomas Bryant, Nerlens Noel, etc. Great voice, great songwriter, obviously a deep thinker.
Also oddly, the last song he ever performed as a cover of Led Zeppelin's "In My Time Of Dying". (Yeah, I highlighted that for anyone skimming).
I found the post I mentioned at the beginning of the post, about that being my theme song at times(it's the unnamed video that Pitchfork article earlier in the thread was alluding to at the beginning). Check out the guy's eyes in the still shot. They could look quite intense at times.
NCAA info
Andrew Wood's death was mentioned earlier in the thread, and
this amazing song was written about it. It feels a fitting tribute to Chris himself, check out those lyrics(as well as that voice). RIP Chris.
(Even though that song is sad, the great sound, including Mike McCready's guitar, is something I associate with a time when life was much
lighter, even if not always happier.