I really don't think agonizing is the right term. You agonize over the cancer diagnosis and the treatment options, you agonize over whether it's time to continue treatment for a sick family member or seek hospice treatment, you agonize over whether to keep the severely injured leg and try to rehab or amputate, you agonize over whether to run into the line of fire to save your fallen comrade or make it home to see the baby son/daughter you've never met. Deciding whether to play the sport you love with friends while completing your college degree and seek a national championship or sign a 7 figure contract to play that same sport isn't agonzing. We're making way more of this decision from both his the fan's perspective than it is.